Been a while since i last blogged here. Checking, i realize that my last blog was written last Novemeber 07. I really don't know why I stopped blogging. Maybe lack of interest. Or maybe I just can't share the things I feel like I used to for so many various reasons. Reasons that keep even myself from realizing what I really feel towards something/someone. Whatever.
Anyway, I feel so confused these past few days. Sometimes I just feel crappy, cranky, sad, hurt and all other negative feelings all at the same time. And maybe that is the reason why I'm back here. I am once again seeking refuge, comfort and peace of mind on these blank pages which had once made me transfer those negative feelings into the electronic world. Into the eyes of strangers which would probably not care. Maybe I'm just some sad kid writing what he feels for them, but I don't care. What people think usually matters for me, but this time, once again, it will not matter.
This may be a pretty long entry since I have so many things to write about. Or maybe, if I get bored/sleepy I'd cut this entry into pieces.
Since the start of summer I had so many questions. The daily train trips alone can make a person feel this way. Sometimes a question just pops out of your head out of nowhere while staring at the blank faces of other people in the train. One question I received from the mysterious beyond is this: Can you really forget about someone whom you have already loved? I know people tend to say, "i forgot about him/her" or "i've moved on" but can people really do that? Not that this is my present situation but i just thought about that. Thinking for a while made me realize that yes people can forget about someone since forgetting happens in the mind, but deep inside you will always have a sepcial feeling for someone whom you have loved. I don't know. I'm no psychologist or something but I really think it works this way. I think that you can only forget someone but never "un-love" them. Again, whatever. These are just random stuff coming from me.
Well maybe that's it for now. I'm too lazy to spill about my feelings right now. I know "she" won't ever chance upon this pages but laziness is overpoewring me so I'll write about it someother time. I hope I'll be back here soon, unlike last time. Well, whatever.
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Anyway, I feel so confused these past few days. Sometimes I just feel crappy, cranky, sad, hurt and all other negative feelings all at the same time. And maybe that is the reason why I'm back here. I am once again seeking refuge, comfort and peace of mind on these blank pages which had once made me transfer those negative feelings into the electronic world. Into the eyes of strangers which would probably not care. Maybe I'm just some sad kid writing what he feels for them, but I don't care. What people think usually matters for me, but this time, once again, it will not matter.
This may be a pretty long entry since I have so many things to write about. Or maybe, if I get bored/sleepy I'd cut this entry into pieces.
Since the start of summer I had so many questions. The daily train trips alone can make a person feel this way. Sometimes a question just pops out of your head out of nowhere while staring at the blank faces of other people in the train. One question I received from the mysterious beyond is this: Can you really forget about someone whom you have already loved? I know people tend to say, "i forgot about him/her" or "i've moved on" but can people really do that? Not that this is my present situation but i just thought about that. Thinking for a while made me realize that yes people can forget about someone since forgetting happens in the mind, but deep inside you will always have a sepcial feeling for someone whom you have loved. I don't know. I'm no psychologist or something but I really think it works this way. I think that you can only forget someone but never "un-love" them. Again, whatever. These are just random stuff coming from me.
Well maybe that's it for now. I'm too lazy to spill about my feelings right now. I know "she" won't ever chance upon this pages but laziness is overpoewring me so I'll write about it someother time. I hope I'll be back here soon, unlike last time. Well, whatever.
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