sunday is the day.

i don't know why but for me sunday is the day where i get so emotional. not the kind that you start cryin' and stuff, but every sunday i always think about a certain girl or "the" certain girl. may it be my present gf at that time or someone i like. maybe it's because during sunday night, wave 89.1 and magic 89.9 play r&b/senti music. it's not that i don't want it, im just writing this entry to explain this habit of mine.

like today, at this exact moment, im listening to these kind of music while thinking of "her". haha. funny how i start thinking of someone i really am not related to. but i like her. i really do. and recent events led me to liking her even more. i don't know what the word is. may it be infatuation, crush, admiration or whatever. use whatever word available, but im liking this feeling. i like it coz it helps me look at the good side of life. anticipating tomorrow and waiting for the future, it's all good. ^_^

and now im missin her. haha.

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been a while.

been a while since i posted something here.
maybe i was just not in the mood to write.
or to express my confusion about myself.

last night.
i dreamt of someone.
a girl.
i know her.
and i like her.
the last time i saw her was about 2 or 3 yrs ago so,
i don't know why i dreamt of her,
but in my dream
she came back from where she is right now.
came back here.
with me.
and now, i'm missing her.
and i don't know why.
all day, i thought about her.
even though there's no chance that she's thinkin' of me too.

im so lost.
i need saving.

then again, a knock on my ym.
someone went online.
and i was lost even more.
here it goes again.
my head spinning.
my heart beating fast.
the feeling of not knowing what to do.
the fear of being rejected,
all over again.
the thought of what might have been.
and everything negative follows.

analcom tomorrow.
cocirfu on friday.
hell of a night for me,
on a hell week.

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