tonight i can write..

Tonight I Can Write - Pablo Neruda

Tonight I can write the saddest lines.

Write, for example, 'The night is starry
and the stars are blue and shiver in the distance.'

The night wind revolves in the sky and sings.

Tonight I can write the saddest lines.
I loved her, and sometimes she loved me too.

Through nights like this one I held her in my arms.
I kissed her again and again under the endless sky.

She loved me, sometimes I loved her too.
How could one not have loved her great still eyes.

Tonight I can write the saddest lines.
To think that I do not have her. To feel that I have lost her.

To hear the immense night, still more immense without her.
And the verse falls to the soul like dew to the pasture.

What does it matter that my love could not keep her.
The night is starry and she is not with me.

This is all. In the distance someone is singing. In the distance.
My soul is not satisfied that it has lost her.

My sight tries to find her as though to bring her closer.
My heart looks for her, and she is not with me.

The same night whitening the same trees.
We, of that time, are no longer the same.

I no longer love her, that's certain, but how I loved her.
My voice tried to find the wind to touch her hearing.

Another's. She will be another's. As she was before my kisses.
Her voice, her bright body. Her infinite eyes.

I no longer love her, that's certain, but maybe I love her.
Love is so short, forgetting is so long.

Because through nights like this one I held her in my arms
my soul is not satisfied that it has lost her.

Though this be the last pain that she makes me suffer
and these the last verses that I write for her.



.. saw this poem from my friend's blog. the words perfectly appeal to what i feel right now.. =p

p.s. thanks to my friend nash. i read it in her multiply blog. =p

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she won't understand - typecast

am i boring you out? am i disturbing your pace?
did i break anything on you that would drip down your sail?
did I troubled your life? did I make you aware?
you've said you know it all and i do hope you're right.
i'll write all the things you are today,
but it won't be easy cause it will bother your way....
im sorry for caring for you,
im sorry...and it hurts falling for you.
she wont understand, she puts her mind on what she knows,
she wont know anything, she wont know everything
You are breaking me out you dont have a chance too see,
your words tear a thousand pieces and it falls all over me.
can we make up for it? you wont make up for me.
you go on your way and listen to things that you want to hear.

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damn this life.

why do i always get hurt under the same fuckin circumstance? i know no one's gonna bother readin this, specially the ones involved but i don't fuckin care. i just want answers. answers why. why i always experience this. why i always get hurt with "them". and why promises are taken for granted. you told me you'd never love "___". you told me you'll wait for me. you told me "wla munag love life". but why is this happening? i don't know everything or i don't know anything at all. but there's one thing i know for sure, i feel that there's something out there, that's gonna hurt me real bad if i knew about it. whatever happens, i still love you. yes, i really do. and i know that you don't wanna care. then fine, do it your way. but i still want you to know that i love you. and i can and will love you better than "___" can do. you know that. you just have to admit it to yourself. stop denying everything your heart tells you. you know we can work this out. you just have to believe. believe in me and believe in yourself. i don't care about anything anymore. i just want you back.

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