variable change.

always account for variable change.

that's a line coming from the movie "21". but how could you account for variable change so easily when change comes unexpectedly?

coming off from summer and the first week of classes, i started to feel a bit confused about things. of course, the thing i was most confused is when i think about her. me. and us. i know for a fact that we will never be. and this is why sometimes, i just wake up in the morning feeling all hyped up telling myself starting now, im gonna forget about her. but how can you forget about her when fate gives you every reason not to? all this things happening to us both makes me crazy. just when you are at that moment, when you are sure of yourself that at last you've got her out of your system, fate and destiny just gives the both of you time to be together. just when you thought that she's never gonna affect you and your feelings again, life just gives you another experience wherein you start to fall for her all over again. i'm pretty sure that compared to what i feel towards her, her feelings for me is so small that it is negligible. i know she'll never see me the way i see her. not in my lifetime. i just want to get out of this room. a room filled with your smiles and pictures. a room filled with the sound of your voice as well as your laughter. a room filled with you.

i just want to be able to account for variable change, and not get too emotional when you are around.

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