hate this.

current situation:

IM window is open, but i can't say or type anything. im just staring at my pc, with an IM window to her open. but can't say a thing. i know i've said that i should take risks. actually, she also said that we should take the risk. but i can't. i don't know what the hell is holding me back. maybe the fear of being rejected by this someone whom i admire. i don't want history repeating itself, (even though technically it really does repeat.) and be rejected again and again and again. im just starting to put my heart back together and yet here i am, deciding if i should take this risk.

hate this.

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